Late last week, Emily Cave – widow of former Edmonton Oilers forward Colby Cave – shared her frustrations regarding COVID-19, mandatory mask use, and the overall lack of response from the general public on social media.
Not one to mince words, as she has been quite vocal surrounding the many complications since her husband’s sudden passing in early April of 2020, Cave shared her built up thoughts via an Instagram story. The message from her story is written below, in its entirety.
“I have kept my opinions regarding COVID to myself or people in my close circle, but today I hit my breaking point with Alberta making new restrictions,” Cave wrote. “I personally see and hear so many people complaining. I understand a lot of people feel that they won’t get it and if they did they would survive it, however.”
“What would happen if your loved one became sick very fast with something else, or was in a car accident,” she asked. “Or was dying and then because of the COVID restrictions you weren’t allowed to be with them. My 25-year-old husband died alone. I have no clue what his last breath was like…. I have yet to be able to have a funeral…. Because of this global pandemic so for goodness sake.”
“Wear a mask and wash your freaking hands. It’s not the end of your world if you can’t go to house parties or do things that are essentially a “luxury” in your blessed world. Because let me tell you… Its not a luxury having your husband die alone; it’s not a luxury getting a phone call saying ‘he’s dead’ compared to being there holding his hand. It’s not a luxury losing a loved one during a freaking global pandemic if this insults any of my followers. Unfollow me or grow up because until you’re in my shoes – which I pray to God you never have to be – your opinion can eat sh*t.”
Back in October, Emily Cave posted another message on her Instagram page, retelling the past half year following Colby’s death, with emphasis to his final days on earth, while living in a COVID-filled world. The image she paints is anything but comforting:
“Six months ago today, I lost my best friend, my whole heart, and the love of my life,” she wrote. “I still haven’t washed his pillow case. I still roll over every morning at night to kiss him, to lay on his chest, to hear his heart beat. I still catch myself wanting to tell him something, ask him for help, call him, or text him. I still wait for Colb’s name to come up on my phone. I still tell Chester every morning and night how much his Daddy loves him, that we are his whole world.
“I still have so many questions; I still have all the plans we had made together at the forefront of my mind, 24/7. I still catch myself thinking he’s on a really long road trip, he’s going to walk through the door late at night, come kiss me in bed, and everything will be right in my world again. I still am in denial that before our first wedding anniversary, I lost my husband. I still have extreme panic attacks multiple times a day thinking of rolling over, touching Colb’s face to kiss him & realizing he was hypothermic, my best friend was already gonna be gone.”
“I still remember the screams to stay alive and that he couldn’t leave me. I still remember sitting in a room all alone waiting to hear if he’s going to make it through surgery. I still remember begging the doctors to let me stay with him, that I would wear a diaper, I wouldn’t leave his bedside but I was sent home and couldn’t be with him because “COVID”. We were both negative but they still wouldn’t let me. I still remember waiting to FaceTime him the days following with a nurse holding an iPad. Again, just begging him to wake up.”
“I still don’t understand why Colb had to die and not me. I still would do anything to give him my brain, to save him because life without my husband, best friend, and whole heart is unbearable. I still wish every single day that it was me instead of Colb. I would have done anything to keep him alive. I want my husband back. I want my old life back. I want to be where Colb is, I want to hold his hand again. Today is excruciating and my heart feels like it could explode. One day closer to seeing you in Heaven babe. I cannot freaking wait. It will be the second best day of my life, other than our wedding day.”